Seriously?

Well, I haven't been on here in a few days. There is so much to tell!

1.  Last Friday we had my Grandmother's 90th birthday party in Cleveland.  It was super nice. my Dad did a great job pulling it off.  Everyone seemed to enjoy themselves. The food was yummy.  And most importantly, Grandmother was happy! What an accomplishment! LOL

2.  We spent the rest of last weekend visiting Brent's parents and grandmother. That was nice.  Then I had to rush back for the funeral of a dear friend's sister! So sad.  Carla, you are in my prayers!

3.  Today they were supposed to come and install my hardwood flooring in the living room.  What a disaster. My Dad started calling me at work at 9 am with issues.  Apparently some of the floor joists were hung upside down causing then to crown.  No big deal for  carpet, but a nightmare for hardwood.  fortunately, the installer had a buddy who could come today and fix it. So, needless to say, my kids had a sub this afternoon and I busted ass home to take care of this and avoid the looming panic attack that was sure to hit if I continued to deal with this from work!!  The guy came and got right to work! He is GREAT and now my hero!  He has be planing the boards all day to get them even. now he is reinstalling the subfloor. 

4. The Installation company said they could not get me rescheduled for hardwood until the 12th...... WHAT? I threw a fit. I have furniture spread all over the downstairs, sawdust EVERYWHERE, and I only have a subfloor.... she must have been joking! Turns out if you are persistent enough they are willing to call people to see if they want to make some extra money on their day off! LOL They will be here at 8 am tomorrow! Thank goodness!

I am hoping this story is going to have a happy ending...... I guess I will know more tomorrow!  PRAY for me!!

WOWO!

I am totally worn out today. I am sure tomorrow with the first full day will be worse. I had a great day today. My kids rock.... maybe the best class yet. I was impressed with how well they caught on to "my way!" I think it is gonna be a good year!!! 

I am cooking dinner, taking a little soak in the tub, and going to bed!! I have a busy couple of days! More to come!

tough day

Tough day..... That's all. Just a tough day! Tomorrow will be a new day.... with new kids! 

More tomorrow......

Just a day.....

I MISS THE POOL!!! It is really depressing being back at work! I got my role today. I really only know a couple of the kids. But from what I hear it is a good group of kids! I am excited to meet them all Wednesday.  It is still exhausting being there all day though. I think I got used to being lazy. It is amazing how much I have to do when I get home to keep up with my chores at home!

So, about the thousand dollar apple pie.....  It was quite good.  Brent did a great job and I know he was proud of himself. So, I guess it was worth all of the searching and purchasing in the long run! Shhhh..... Don't tell Brent! LOL

I went and had a spray tan yesterday to hide my soon arriving vitamin d deficiency! LOL  I usually hate them.  I actually like this one. I went to Suntan City.  It was the machine kind, which I am not used to.  They do four passes of tan and then two passes of hydration. I think I may love it. So, I might just keep on going. We'll see how it wears down over the next few days!

I think I will go take a nice long soak in the tub and then curl up under the covers. I have another long and busy day tomorrow. Sorry I am so boring right now.... I will get back to excitement and my rants on life again soon.

I will just say this. I think a lot of times people waste valuable time saying regretful things to one another. I know from personal experience that our time on this Earth is short and another day is not promised to anyone. It is important to remember how fast it can all end. It is even more important to shower the people we love with kindness and love for 2 really important reasons; so they will always know how we really feel instead of how we feel when we are angry or scared and so we will never have to live with regret about things that cannot be undone.  Be loving to the people you love, be generous to those who are generous to you, and be forgiving because you never know when you may need to be forgiven!!  So, for all the valuable people in my life who read this blog, I love you, even though you already know.  

That is all I have tonight! More soon!

Great Day

We had a great day today! We went and picked up our hardwood flooring for the living room. Now it just has to acclimate to the temp in the house for 72 hours and then they will call me to install it. I will be so glad to have it done (6 years later LOL)

Then Brent and I went to Cool Springs to get the rest of his provisions for the thousand dollar apple pie, as I am calling it.  We went to Pottery Barn to look at rugs. Then on to Williams Sonoma (one of my fav shops in the world) to get a very special tart pan for the thousand dollar apple pie. They were having a great sale so I managed to pick up a few other little things, I had to have. then I noticed a great sale across the hall at Coldwater Creek.  I found several tops I needed to have for work of course. Then on to Buca di Beppo for late lunch!! YUMMY as always.  Next it was on to Whole Foods to get some tapioca flour (for the thousand dollar pie), which is apparently only available locally there!  So, I took the opportunity to pick up lots of organic meat and veggies while I was there!

When we got home, Brent got to work fast and furiously on the thousand dollar apple pie crust. So, it looks like tomorrow we will know if it tastes like a thousand dollar pie! LOL I am sure it will be great. Brent is quite the dessert chef!!! If his one of a kind, frequently requested by all cheesecakes are any indication, it should be the best apple pie ever! LOL

I took the quite time as a chance to do a little reading. I started reading "Stories from Candyland," which appears to be a lengthy rebuttle to Tori spelling's book "sTori Telling." It is a pretty good and super easy read! I guess next I will check out "Mommywood," Tori's new book.

Mom and Norval are coming over for roast (In my new Le Creuset french oven) and thousand dollar apple pie tomorrow. So, I think I will lounge at the pool all day and then come home and get to cookin!  I am still trying to pretend I am on break, even though break is so over now. I will have kids starting Wednesday! I am interested to find out who I will have a get started on the year with them. I am sure this last year will be a great one! I am going to make sure of it!

So, I guess that is all for now! More tomorrow!

back to work

Well, I went back to work today. I would like to say it was the most terrible thing that has ever happened..... but it really wasn't. Don't get me wrong, it was no fun.  But, it was tolerable! I am sure I can make it this last year! I really love seeing the kids and some of the people I work with. I will miss the kids.  It is sweet when they come for registration because they are so excited to see you after a month and a half away. I will miss those things! It was not the same without Carla next door, that made me sad.  I cried a little once when she came to see me and she was a little teary. We will survive though. It is hard when you teach bc you have little adult interaction all day. It is very emotionally stressful and you get used to relying on the people next door all day. you become really close. So, it is always sad when someone has to move!  Oh well, this will be a nice group for her to work with and I think she will enjoy it eventually!

I am totally pooped... who knew what a difference it would make getting up at 6 instead of 9 or 10.  I missed my hour of drinking coffee and watching the View!  I guess I will go back to work and try again tomorrow! LOL  I guess in this crappy economy I should be really thankful to have a job instead of counting down the months until it ends!

My Mom was telling me how much Norval really wants to go to Lake Tahoe in the winter and ski and stuff and apparently really wants us to go. I am really thinking I could love the idea of spending Christmas at Lake Tahoe.... that might be just what I need.  I have been in a little funk for several months now(in case you haven't noticed LOL). I am not sure what my deal is, but 

I know I need to snap out of it. I think last year was a lot I was not ready for. The baby thing was tough. And losing Honky was horrific. My Aunt has been struggling with breast cancer. Although she is doing pretty good. Then a good friend was diagnosed with Cancer. It has just been a whole lot of bad off and on for a while. I am usually really good about dealing with things and moving on, but all of this has been a little tougher and affected me more than things usually do. I am working really hard on getting back to me again. I guess it is harder than I realized it might be. I know I need to get started thinking about the baby thing again.... and I will soon. I really want o have a baby so much.... I am just a little skeptical of suffering that kind of loss again. I guess I better toughen up and quit being a baby, huh? I just need to start making some positive changes and start finding ways to feel like me again (the me who can shake off the stress a little better!)  

Oh well, that's enough whining from me for one night. I think I am really unhappy about my summer being over!! LOL Can you tell?  I guess I will go take a nice long soak in the tub ( maybe even with the jets on) LOL  And Relax and wind down for bed! I am sure I will never go to sleep tonight. Getting back on schedule is tough!!

That's all for now! Tomorrow's FRIDAY!!!! Yay! I will be in a great mood for sure the next time I blog!!!

well, it's official, this is my last day of summer break!  I was going to try to spend the day at the pool, but I am not so sure mother nature is going to comply!  oh well, surely I have reached my vitamin D quota for the year! LOL

So, my husband has decided he wants to be a non-smoker. I am glad. I would really like us to live to be 100!  I have no problem not smoking, but it is hard when he smokes. So, they are calling him in some Chantix.... so non-smoking is gonna be the new smoking! LOL  I think it will make him feel better and be around longer, so I am all for it!!

I just want to get on a little rant about marriage... not mine, other people's! LOL  I think all of these people have this warped image of what marriage is supposed to be, so when it turns out not to be what they think, they quit and run for divorce court.  Here is what I have to say about it.

1. Marriage is not some sort of daily fairy tale.  And for those of you saying, "but mine is," it really isn't.  If it seems that way right now, you are in for a real shake up when the real world sticks it's ugly little head in.

2.  Marriage is not about one person getting what they want all the time. It is about a 50/50 partnership. If you are still workin a 70/30 system, you are screwed.

3.  Marriage is not a competition of who's is better or who's life is more glamorous..... marriage is not glamorous... it is everyday!!

4.  When the going gets tough, you cannot quit.  The grass really isn't greener on the other side. I am not sure what all of these people are thinking.  It seems like all anybody wants to do these days is give up and go have a good time.... sometimes what you have is great and you are too damn stupid to see it!!! 

5.  The first year of marriage is not all rosey like people want you to think. Although it is mostly wonderful, it requires a great deal of adjustment and work to make it a good fit...... 

6.  The people around you have to be with you as a couple.... not for one of you and on your side. All the people you surround yourself with have to be in support of you as a couple... there are no sides to be taken in a marriage. And although it may make you feel vindicated that someone is "on your side," it is really not good for your marriage. If they are "on your side," they are against your partnership!!!

So here is what I have to say to sum it up.  When you make a commitment before God and the people you love to be married to another person, you are making a commitment to tough it out through good and bad times..... unless you are abused or cheated on.... then by all means get the hell out!!!  And about that.... Cheating.  Here is my take on cheating. There are two kinds of cheaters. Those who cheat because they are cheaters, and those who cheat because they have lost there way. I believe that sometimes people get lost in their marriage and may stray off course and cheat once.  I think those people may need to do that in order to realize their love for the person they are with... if you are this person and have done this, and it makes you realize where you are meant to me, then leave it in the past and move on with a new commitment to your spouse.  If it really was just a reality check, do not destroy the person you love by telling them.... if you can move forward and be committed your spouse forever... do it! After all, we are all human!

Now, for all of these people in fairy tale land. Those Disney like fairy tales that we grow up dreaming of are not reality.  Reality is the everyday.  Some days are going to be great and some just ok and others really crappy.  The trick is to remember why you fell in love with that person and keeping on loving them.  Real love is day to day. It is working in the yard, and playing with your kids, and watching movies, and paying bills.  Sometimes we misplace our fairy tale. I have decided the trick to a healthy lasting marriage is finding ways to keep falling in love all over again.  It can be as simple as a comment or doing a project together.  But, you have to find a way to keep falling in love. It is not ok to just love a person.... you have to be in love. These are two completely seperate things!  So, the thing is, it may not be "work" to be married, but it does require an effort and a commitment everyday, not just when things are good!!  

So, that is my rant on marriage. I am so sick of people giving up or constantly bitching about their marriages.... all that time spent searching for something to be perfect or bitching when it's not could be better spent finding quality ways to renew your commitment to each other!  And for those of you who are not married.... think about who you are committing to and do you really want to wake up next to them everyday. Cause if you are not sure, you cannot do it. You cannot get married as a result of convenience or circumstance. It won't work if you do!!!

I am glad I chose the person I chose.... for all of his faults I love him. I love him everyday.  I want to choke him sometimes, but I always love him.  I love falling in love with him every chance I get. I love being in a crowd of people and catching a glance from across the room that makes me melt into him again. I love when he acts stupid and goofy and makes me laugh. I love when he really irritates me and then acts silly to make forget he irritated me.  I love the way he looks at me when I sing. I love the little glimmer I get from him when I know in that moment he is falling in love with me again. I love when he walks in the door after being at work all day. I love sitting in the garage all sweaty after we have worked outside together. I love watching him cut up with my Mom and picking at her. I love the way he laughs like a little kid when something is really funny.  For all the times I have wondered why, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he really loves me.... not in a fairy tale kind of way, but everyday!!!  So, people if you have not found this kind of love.... I am sorry. Start searching now and hopefully you will find it. I wish everyone could have 1/2 of the happiness I have found.... because it is really something!

So that's it.... that is what I have to say about marriage. For those of you thinking this is about you, it's probably not. I am just really sick of watching marriage crumble because people a looking for something that may be right in front of their faces!!!

That's all for today, my last day of break!  Back to reality tomorrow.